BAH Humbug...

Woke up okay today, and then quikly found myself in a sour mood after a headache started. I knew a mourning like this was going to come eventually. Michael has been away for weeks and last night I fell asleep with thoughts of how distant he feels already. I talked to him for a few minutes, but he had to let me go so quikly to go do his job...

I feel disconnected. I feel like I want to push him away a little so it won't hurt to miss him. When I think of that, I just remember the last time he was in Afghanistan. I am really going to have to resist the urge to do that this time.

I could possibly be a grump today because I'm thinking of my birthday coming up and 25 is a few more years than I'm ready to be. I would be okay with it, if I had some college or a career under my belt, but at this point, I'm feeling like a 25 year old who has gone nowhere with her life.

I really hope I don't come home to another surprise party. Nothing would piss me off more than that. I don't even want anything for my birthday. Well, there is one thing, but I know it's useless to pine over it anymore...

Before I bitch anymore, I think I should go back to bed for a while and sleep my headache and blues away...